A question that seems to stir up a young adult frequently is, “If you could go back in time, what would you change and why?”
This reveals many things to me about how a person is. How they handle things and what depths from them have hindered their growth in certain ways. Their grudges, secrets, regrets & personalities.
I dance through this question from time to time, too. Like everyone, I have my own set of doubts that stir me inside. But honestly, I don’t think I have an answer to that question. I know that despite certain things in my life terribly not going as planned, I don’t think I would’ve twisted it in any other way. I guess it’s a matter of acceptance about how I am vs. how I was, maybe. Perhaps it’s because I knew that in each very thing that I didn’t like that happened, I eventually got to understand that if I had the chance to go back, I would’ve done the same thing.
And I think that’s a bit sad.. but in a way it feels free, too.
They have happened but so have I. In every sow, I reaped something new about myself that I’ve never seen before.
I’ve been through a handful things. I know I will go through a lot more. And that is okay. That was me. This is also me. Out of my own will and sincerity, and I wouldn’t have done it any other way. No matter how sucky that sounds. They happened for a reason ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
And now, I’m still alive. Still drifting. Braver, perhaps? Still curious. Still tired. But alive (barely).
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